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Vampire :
Naixin ,
Don't Say Wrong My Name .
Loves skeleton.
Ageless ,
-been living for :
2thousand years , 9month , 2 days .
Anglican High ;
But i hate it.
Concert Band.
Clarinet.
Its awesome !
Singapore Church Of Harvest.
Single but is Loved by GOD.
HT5 2008 ,
HT4 2009 ,
HT1 2010 ,
Requesting Presents On 2 September ,
if not ..
YOU DIE .

我们天上的父，
愿人都尊你的名为圣，
愿你的国度降临，
愿你的旨意行在地上，
如同行在天上。
我们日用的饮食，
今日赐给我们。
免我们的债，
如同我们免了人的债。
不叫我们遇见试探，
救我们脱离凶恶。
因为国度，权柄，荣耀，
都是你的，
直到永远。
阿门。

Adrian
Ahband
Ahband
Ahclarinet
AmandaBand
Amanda1B
Andrea
Angela
Brendan
Cecelia
Cornelia
Changhua
Freda
Harvest teens
HT5
Hui wen
Hui zhen
Jaime
Janice
Katherine
Liyun
Loyalty
Michelle
Qin lin
Qing yi
Ren meng
Rui Xin
SamanthaBand
SamanthaTKPS
Samantha1B
Si hui
Shang le
Shi min
Shu hui
Stacy
Sylvia
Teng teng
Teng teng
Teng teng
Teresa
TKPS
Tony
Wanling
Winnie
Wei lin
Wen jing
Xin ni
Xuan
Yan yong
Yeeting
Yi jin
Yun yu
Yuling
6 harmony
Slacker grp

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today is the teachers day concet.
wake up at 5.
wow! freaking early man.
have to reach school by 620.
crazy rite?
that time still no mrt leh.
walao, took cab to school.
14 dollars...
argh! my money fly away.....
heart pain...
anyways,
received the present from amanda!
it was 3 rico royal reed!
haha, damn surprised!
thank you mannnda!!! muacks!!! <3333

hee, then went to play the concert.
argh! i played one wrong note.
shit la,
but heng its not obvious...
haha
thank God!!!!

after that went to tkps with yy,qy,wl & st.
meet with xuan after that.
but the freaking scurity guard dont allow us to go in.
scold us somemore.
freak freak freak!!!
waited for about one hour.
then finally,
mr rogue chua came out and released us...
went to canteen to eat with xuan!
miss the foods there!!!!
haaaaa,
i ate tom yam!!!!
the one that i miss the most!!!
lols.
then hashbrown and chicken and dont know what its called
blahblahblah...
and drink the super cheap oreo bubble tea...
talked to mrs tan after that,
and mr ashraf,
and 陈老师.
haaaa,
some of them was so shock when they see me.. =.=
then ask me if i go perm my hair... =.=
lols.
anyway,
its still happy day,
really missed the times,
even when the times that we qurrel.
went to mac for a while.
xuan treated me fries!!!!!
yummy!!
talked with xuan at her house the void deck.
hahaaaa,
thats what we always do man.
so cool,
its always so nice just talking to you,xuan.
love you lots!!!!!!!!! <3333333333

Labels: moments of happiness

i suppose that i'm very disappointed at myself.
yeah.
very disappointed.










why cant i just have my faith in God,
why cant i just trust Him,
why cant i just remember His words....









oh gosh,
the feeling is making me faint,
i hate this part.
that i didnt put enough trust and faith in God,
that i lose control of His hand,
i should have trusted Him.
i should have!
but i didnt.
i felt so guilty,
yet i know that God would still forgive me.
what are you doing man?
you just do things wrongly and ask for forgiveness over and over again?
you stop it!
you need to stop it!
for yesterdays saturday survice,
when jiejiexueling is praying for me,
i felt the stress on my shoulder,
right in front of me crushing towards me,
it was the feeling of guilt,
that i burst out of tears all of a sudden,
the feeling is so hard that i cant stop crying.
for just what the hell i had done?!








but maybe,
this is a good thing too.
i found it,
finally,
the love,
the heart.
that i feel myself going to God closer and closer.
thank you Jesus.
thank you.
for that everlasting love.
for that heart of forgiving.

—— If 8 months of hardship is a piece of shit in your eye,
then YOU are a piece of shit in MY eye.


u kw wat,
i cried 2 time todae.
man.
thts so awesome
it break my record liao, i thk
am i doing somethg wrong?
i asked myself.
shld i just show off my REAL face in front of my frens?
am such a fake person, i thk
tht i acted out everythg.
tht i try to fake thgs up.
tht i try to show hyperness which i dun reli haf, i suppose.
wat went wrong?
everythg is so peaceful in e begining.
everythg was fine...
sch days r always so fun, so interesting...
but den e qurrel starts,
frm fren to fren until it spread over wide.
n nw,
thgs seemed so screwed up for me.
band?
oh freak wats tht?
lyk recently,
so many thgs happened,
tht make me hurt deep inside my heart
its lyk,
ok, mayb, MAYB
they r trying to b good to me. GOOD
but for me it just iznt gd at all!
u kw hw it feels?
yeah, am frm oboe, transfered to clarinet.
but tht doesnt mean tht u cn transfer me back to oboe or another section rite?
if it means.
i tell u,
honestly,
I'm going to quit band.
i dun care abt e tym n e money i spent.
as no one reli cares anyway.
neither do i care abt wat stupid cca points.
nor e sch.
i shld haf transfered sch.
hmmm, chiong cheng high.
nt bad nt bad,
its near my house n i haf plenty of REAL gd frens there.
its lyk,
thgs r going in a right way but suddenly,
a van dashed out.
n everythg start to go to e left.
am right handed pls,
i dun kw hw to go left.
n i dun even wan to kw hw to get to left.
becuz i simply haf no interest in it at all.
simple?

Labels: deeply hurt

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hahahahaha
hahahahaha
hahahahaha
hahahahaha
hahahahaha

offically patched wif yy n amanda .
yeah !
:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
damn happy
haha
thank God !!!

argh
hahaha :DDDD
lols

Labels: moments of happiness

sometimes i wonder ,
why am i always the one unhappy .
i dun know also .
perhaps its just something wrong with my character .
perhaps its just that am born for people to dislike .
i wonder ,
why do i always feel so lonely ?
or why did i even came to singapore ?
silly thinking .
silly .
all the way from my primary school .
from the matter that i started qurreling or even fightin with the groups by gongying .
until after that the fighting with yutong n shiting they all .
until even i lost kind of my best friends .
i wonder ,
wat the hell am i doing ?
and now ,
i thought that my secondary life will be calm and peace .
but things just dun want to go by my way .
the matter of brigel make me think deeply .
i wonder why do people start to hate me .
why ?
just why ?
is like , wat i done to deserve all these ?
i think i never understand the word truth friends .
mayb ,
i shld just keep quite and let everyone step onto my head .
ya .
that mayb the way .
but its not the one that i wan .
u know wat ?
sometimes , i just find living in this world is so horrible , terrible .
i remembered one of odelias post talking about truth friend .
i know for some people ,
its reli easy to find friends ,
to find friends who are loyal to them .
but for me , it just seem to be so difficult .
every thing seems like a big stone on my path ,
which blocks my way .
mayb i have a group of friends ,
but its just a mayb .
i dun know when i will qurrel with them , and den they will leave me together .
wonderful .
fantastic .
awesome .
see ? you got wat i trying to say ?
am a noob rite ?
thats why am such a failure ,
i fail to do everything .
you got green form from all sorts of teachers .
you got detention many many times .
all the teacher dun like you .
you cnt even play your clarinet well .
you dun even remember the things that people teach you .
you always got left out by your friends .
you cnt even pass ur nafa test .
you dun even do anything and you wan to receive good things .
ohmygosh
i think am so disguised by myself .
probably failed todays 2.4
anyway ,
fat people like me always fail one .
emoing today .
for i think that i really need a friend ,
but i dun haf .
was lefted out again today ,
by some of the people that i thought we are mates .
mates .
best mates .
but den ,
one of them start to scold me ,
say am the one who pangseh them ,
the other one is the one who tell the other person to scold me ,
and after that ,
act innocent .
the other two leh ,
didnt even reply my sms .
now i dun kw hw to face them .
they will talk to me i know ,
but i dun feel like talking to them sometimes .
and they will say ,
i got mood swing ,
i got bad temper ,
i action ,
i think i very pro ,
aiya overall .
everything is my fault jiu dui liao .
okay ?
everything is my fauly .
mineeeeee fault .

Labels: deeply hurt

okay , todae ,
i wan to apologise to two ppl ...


first one is amanda , which is my soulmate .
yaa , its actually e first tym tht i haf qurrelings wif her ...
shes always hyper , n when she did tht , i thk i gt influence too .
i just felt tht shes just e kind of fren for me ...
we kw each other through band , and clarinet ,
and nw we r veri gdddd fren .
but den somethg happened a few days ago ...
here i dun wanna say wats tht thg ,
but i kw , she didnt mean it ..
but den i was angry over it n i actually ignored her for abt one whole day ...
yaaa ,
at last , is oso her hu start to tok to me first ...
i was reli touched e moment u say u feel sad when i ignored u ...
mayb , its reli a gift frm God to haf u wifff me .
and e next day ,
when i saw u jumping to e canteen table am at ,
just for a simple reason tht i nvr ignore u todae ...

i wan to thank God who gave me such a nice friend .
but Lord , i want to pray that our friendship last forever .

so here , i wanna apologise to amanda ,
yeah , i shld nt b so childish n did silly thgs lyk ths ...
i believe tht God wont let me do ths kind of thgs again ...
and i oso wan to say thank you to u ..
for all e efforts u put in me on helping me wif my clarinet ...
i believe God fated us to b tgt :D
love ya !


second one is someone tht i dun wan to mention e name ...
i trully hope tht u cn understand me n kw hu u r ...
i wan to apologise for me ignoring u for e whole day ...
yaa ,
i shld nt haf do tht ,
being a christian , i always wan to b a person lyk God ,
hu forgives n forgets ...
n am trying my best nw .
so do give me sometym ya ?
but i just wanna tell u ,
u , being a fren of mine , hu kw tht am a christian ,
n kw tht i wan to bring u to church ,
n u purposely say bad thgs abt God in front of me ?
for me , i thk its ridiculous .
thts all i wanna say here .
nth more le .





Father , i want to pray that You let me stay in the position i am currently now .
You know about my passion , my loves , and my ambition .
Lord i believe You know what am trying to say ...
pls Lord , grant my wish .

Labels: random kia