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Vampire :
Naixin ,
Don't Say Wrong My Name .
Loves skeleton.
Ageless ,
-been living for :
2thousand years , 9month , 2 days .
Anglican High ;
But i hate it.
Concert Band.
Clarinet.
Its awesome !
Singapore Church Of Harvest.
Single but is Loved by GOD.
HT5 2008 ,
HT4 2009 ,
HT1 2010 ,
Requesting Presents On 2 September ,
if not ..
YOU DIE .

我们天上的父，
愿人都尊你的名为圣，
愿你的国度降临，
愿你的旨意行在地上，
如同行在天上。
我们日用的饮食，
今日赐给我们。
免我们的债，
如同我们免了人的债。
不叫我们遇见试探，
救我们脱离凶恶。
因为国度，权柄，荣耀，
都是你的，
直到永远。
阿门。

Adrian
Ahband
Ahband
Ahclarinet
AmandaBand
Amanda1B
Andrea
Angela
Brendan
Cecelia
Cornelia
Changhua
Freda
Harvest teens
HT5
Hui wen
Hui zhen
Jaime
Janice
Katherine
Liyun
Loyalty
Michelle
Qin lin
Qing yi
Ren meng
Rui Xin
SamanthaBand
SamanthaTKPS
Samantha1B
Si hui
Shang le
Shi min
Shu hui
Stacy
Sylvia
Teng teng
Teng teng
Teng teng
Teresa
TKPS
Tony
Wanling
Winnie
Wei lin
Wen jing
Xin ni
Xuan
Yan yong
Yeeting
Yi jin
Yun yu
Yuling
6 harmony
Slacker grp

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Lovedrops♥
x x x x

oh gosh
ths is just so ridiculous
=.=
the anglican high sch hand book 2009,
tht i had been looking for for abt 8 months,
jumped out of my hse just nw.
=.=
its like,
todae is the first day of holiday eh !
wat the !
ths is freaking stupid lor.
=.=
haix, nvm
i shall just take it as suvenior
lols

its the ugly truth.
the really ugly one.

actually,
i have no idea what am i going to write in this post,
today in school i had gastric,
back home ealier,
i sat down and thought really deeply.
hey why is this just happening to me ?
i know i had really done a lot of wrong things.
really a lot a lot.
am telling people that i can not stand vulgarities,
when in side my heart,
i shout it out loud when am angry.
what's this ?
should that be what you should do as a daughter of God.
i gossiped behind people's back whereas i ask people not to do that to us ?
its unreasonable.
but i don't really understand,
why does everything start to change since the time i came back from China ?
what happened ?
its the ugly fact that i had no idea at all.
but i choose to trust winnie le,
even if she's wrong,
i've trusted her already,
what else can i do ?
abandone her and wenjing, qinlin and wanrong just for you ?
all rights man,
its totally impossible,
i think that my friendship with wanrong n qinlin is tough.
we quarreled many times,
we got backstabbed by the same person when our friendship is not even strong.
but we still make it to the end.
i thank God for that.
its just impossible to let go of their hands,
and so the same for winnie, wenjing and the rest.
i remember in the beginning of the year,
where we sit near to each other,
and everytime you would call me to buy sweets for you,
and everytime we would be together taking some videos,
and we will laugh and laugh and laugh non-stop.
isn't that wonderful memories ?
oh but i almost forgot,
its all over now.
its the ugly truth that because of winnie,
you start to hate me,
and its also the ugly truth that,
because of one of your good fren who i suppose,
backstabbed me somehow,
i started to hate you.
God says we must be mercy and forgive and forget.
but sometimes its just so difficult for me to do.

its the ugly truth that i said bad things of you and thought really negatively about you.
because of all that confections that happened weeks ago,
you saw my tears ya ?
do you think thats faked ?
i suppose i told you before the reasons when i would cry,
its my heart pain.
most of the pain physically i could bear with it,
but not with my heart yea ?
but its even the more uglier truth that,
you said to my friends who are neutral,
bad things about me ?
ya ?
we are not stupid,
its obvious.
its got another 3 years in band that we will meet each other.
and its gt another 3 chance that we will be in the same class.

i know about my own ugly truth,
i trust people too easily,
and am always over-protective.
but i never regret all that i had done ?
i've standed up for winnie and now i've make myself a group of enemies.
all that i done for winnie resulting me in what ?
spammed blog, losing of friends, gaining of enemies, vulgarities about me.
so have i regretted ?
hmmm, maybe in the future i will,
but so far i havent realise yet.
am sure that i gained something,
i think i had became more matured in friendship.
you are a good friend indeed,
but winnie is better.
qinlin and wanrong is the best.
i believe no one hate me in my clique,
we might not be best friends,
but we were good friends.
so whats really good friendships ?
you will get test for it.
did i had quarrel with wanrong or qinlin ?
yes i did,
i remembered in the beginning i scolded them inside my heart,
but so ?
are we still friends now ?
the answer is obvious rite ?
are we just friends ?
we are toghter in school most of the times.
but the ugly truth is,
we are all going to different classes,
next year,
maybe we will be just a hi-bye friends,
next next year,
maybe we will not be even saying hi-bye.
but so what ?
i've got all the photos taken,
they are the best memories of my secondary 1 life.
and i still have my cliques.
am not alone.
oh i think am a bit out of points already.
but its just pitiful to lose you,
you are really a good friend,
i will remember all our good memories and deleted the bads in my brain.
but its wonderful to gain the cliques,
lastly,
this would be my words for all my friends,
i really thank you for the memories i had.
and extra thanks to wanrong and qinlin whom,
all this while,
been standing by my side.
cliques, you all are the bestest out of the best.
i here wish all of you a wonderful year ahead,
and i really hope that we do keep in touch even when we go to different classes,
clique outing all rights ?
we shall forgot about all our worries and just came to talk with our old friends.
my loves,
cliques,
freda, liyun, qinlin, wanrong, michelle, samantha, wenjing, winnie, xinni, desiree & hilda.
girls, lets all jiayou for next year and make other great friends.
but just, leave some space for the cliques in youe heart.

ha,
i think am going to cry,
only 2 more days left in school.
oh please,
let us have more time.

am starting to reread my bible,
ths time, eng one.
i come across ths verse frm matthew chapter 7
it says:

1. do not judge, or you too will be judged.
2. for in the same way you judges others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.
3. why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?
4. how can you say to your brother. 'let me take the speck out of your eye,' when all the time there is a plank in your own eye?
5. you hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearlyto remove the speck from your brother's eye.

i reli wan to thank god for giving me ths 5 verses.
i thk it reli describe the situation happening nw,
basically,
wat it is saying is:
do not judge or gossip ppl or else u will be done the same way,
hw do you thk abt others is hw others thk abt you.
why do u thk tht other ppl gt attitude prob when u urself's attitude is nt good?
how cn u tell others, let me help out wif ur attitude prob when u gave a black face?
so stop faking, change ur own attitude be4 u wan to do so to others.

oh it reli described hw i feel,
so far,
i thk i've reli done a lot of wrong
i thk i reli showed black face to u sometimes
and truth enough,
i did gossip u guys
u kw hu am toking abt,
i kw u would see ths post
so am just wishing to tell u,
nw tht i had realise my mistake,
i hope u realise it too.
u kw the reason y u wan to say abt others ?
y ?
have u ever ask urself ?
1 suggestion to u,
try to thk frm another perspective,
r we doing everythg wrong ?
all is there reasons tht interlock with each others ?
like wat u had said ?
i dun wan to say until like am someone tht r giving u lessons liddat
i dun wan to act matured or watever
am onli 2 yr older than u,
which is nt veri much
i just sincerly apologise to those ppl tht i had gossiped be4.
u kw hu u r alrite ?
so i reli hope tht thgs would b changed.
just stop doing thgs when u have fun by hurting others.
its just not the way.

oh no am getting more and more excited now adays about spark
:(
tht the fact tht i cnt even make myself to go and sleep at night
i keep thking abt the thgs happen last yr,
and mayb the thgs gng to happen ths yr.
lol
ths is kind of lame la.
watever
=.=
anw,

J
I
A
Y
O
U

and

I
N
V
I
T
E

more

P
E
O
P
L
E

!!!!!

ok fine am super bored nw
:(
i had played com the whole day and nw my eyes hurts
:(
i gt nth to do so thts y am here to blog la
:)
oh ya,
i bet u all cnt see my cursors nw
cuz its BLACKKKKKK
=.=
lols.
its nice but i dun like it
it move so damn slow like a snail...
=.=
anw,
i thk am gng to buy a new fone le,
cuz e stupid fone i buy in china,
nw cnt even charge properly...
-.-
oh and am gng to do hair extension/highlighting during e holidays
i hope band allows tht?
suggest me wat colour suits me yea ?
am gonna look younger and even more hyper !
haha
hope tht through the spark i cn grow n learn to lead ppl !
J
I
A
Y
O
U

N
A
I
B
A
!!!!!!

its the fact tht am the best in my heart la
duh
=.=
haha

its the first tym tht i change my blog skin
i wanted to change a mood la
i reli love my new blogskin !
although it used me about 2 hours.
talked to yf jie just nw abt spark camp,
n actually ths yr i will b e assiantant,
oh helper la.
its super exciting la
i felt so good.
but its tym to face the fact,
most of the ppl i invited is rejecting me.
=.=
haix, how ?
pray lor.
ppl parent dun allow
ppl oversea
ppl dun feel lyk gng
ppl scared paiseh
...
i msg ppl until my fone gng no money liao.
still no one wan to support me.
:(
sad la of cuz
but i thk am nt gng to give up easily.
theres still loads of thgs for me to do yeah ?
so jia you n cheer up naixin ?
oh and i felt reli stressed out just nw msging ppl.
my heart felt so hot lor. =.=
i wan too anxious.
haixxx
i kw God is there to support me,
so there ya,
Go !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



anw, sat had usher meeting
oh so cool they gng to make name tap tht gt my name on it.
woo~~~~~
haha hmmm,
i must change !
must b more open to ppl !
haha
alrite,
thts all,
lols
still feeling stressed out sia.
=.=

hmmm,
now is 10.58
quite late already huh?
lols.
but i decided to post something as i dun want to put it in my heart.
well,
i saw something just now which make me a bit,
hmmm,
pissed.
yeah,
pissed.
well,
i just want to say that,
people who hurt others think that they are hurted first,
well,
they think that whatever they say is not hurting the other party,
well,
obviously they are wrong.
okay,
mayb now they are thinking that they are hurted first.
oh well,
think about it,
why would someone want to hurt others for no purpose?
there would always be a reason behind.
ya i dun want to mention out the exact thing that is happening now.
but i just think that,
if you are so proud of yourself,
then please,
dun even bother to hurt others.
human is always weak,
even friends get hurt easily,
dun even say about enemies.
i thought we once were good friends.
but i didnt know that its just simply so weak.
yup,
honestly,
am sad over it you know,
many times i been thinking about the things we do together,
many times i been looking at those memories.
but so what,
we are breaked already.
i tried my best to just accept you again.
during our project,
but its just to no avail,
in fact,
it onli make me more sad about the lose of our friendship.
haix,
not anymore about us,
but about you and the other party,
if you happen to see this one day,
i know that it wont help in rejoining our friendship or whatever,
i know that you would only hate me more.
haha,
so,
hmmm,
i think you have low self evidence,
yeah,
thats why you are trying your best to hurt others.
i dun know why this would be happening,
but for sure,
both have done something wrong.
but i believe that we didnt do everything,
in fact,
i really think that those who had done more wrong is your side,
dun deny okay,
you also wanted to know what had happened,
and according to the others,
you did apologise,
so i cherish that,
even though i didnt hear a single thing.
but its okay,
i remember one time you asked me if i trust you or the other party,
and i said the other party,
as i think back,
i realise that maybe am hurting you,
so am saying sorry here.
i dun know what else could i do to help you.
i really did prayed for you.
oh maybe you are thinking that i post this for the purpose of embrassing you.
and i want to tell you that am not.
am just trying to tell you something in a classmate perspective.
ya?
if you think that am wrong,
you can come to my face and tell me right away,
i wont mind.
with all that,
i hope that you understand me,
even though i doubt it.

goodbyes, 11.19

fri went to take neoprint wif xuannnnnn aft e mini olympics
heeheehee
ohh its definitely fun la.
lols
anw, i brought a pimple cream tht costs me $17
ya i suppose am crazy
nw i regretted =.=
sun went to service wif tengteng
ohhh i loveeee sun service !
being prayed is just so nice la
hahaha
God's presence is sooo strong
tht i cried again..
heeeeeeee
oh n todae went out wif some cliques
namely:
desiree, winnie, liyun, samantha, xinni & michelle
went to eat at tm
aft tht went to art serve to design our t
it was simply awesome la !
haha
soooo nice
we spent like 1 hr plus there lor
den went pasir ris take neoprint
oh be4 tht we played e thg,
which i 4 gt wat izit called =.=
actually mainly is onli samantha n winnie n desiree playing lor
hahaha
samantha so pro la !
lols
i smuggled quite a lot of sweets ohh frm them (haha)
and e neoprint thg hor,
magnificent la !
we squeeze until cnt lor
lols
design until crazy oso
hahaha
anw, happy days !!!!!





i wonder hu is e one quater head behind

Labels: moments of happiness

hahaha ppl
am back again
lols
anw, ytd went for swimming at chi garden there
wif some ppl
=.=
appareantly nt tht fun as i had expected
shld haf went to e blood donation at kapt wif tengteng
at least gt free flow of foods n drinks
=.=
anw,
e clique tee is gng to come out soon !!!
argh
damn excited la!!!
woohoooooooooo~~~~
but am still wondering if i shld rite naiba or milkball
lols
ths is kind of a hard question
oh ya , oh mayb beibeier~
sians
i cnt haf any idea hw am gng to draw e portrait of myself
my art sucks la
=.=
btw, i wanted to post some pic up one
but they r in my labtop and am nw using my desktop
so sad la
i will try to post it up once its allll rite
haha

haixxxxx
seriously lost interest in blogger le
lols
nth to do sia
recently a lot a lot of things happened...
-.-
which means that i dun wan to talk about it at all
cuz its just simply crap.
hmmm
music is totally screwed up i suppose
thx to ur freako
watever
=.=
gt damn pissed all rite
frm so many ppl la
watever
anyway i shall put down all these unhappy things
cuz i just dun wan to gt disguised by u la
duhhhh
ok
den i shall post some pics.
haha







i suppose ths is taken by ql. yeah i thk i look cool. hahahahaHA.
n beside me is e one quater head of wenjing. lols

Labels: freaking pissed off